My Life in a Parallel Universe
As a kid, I loved comic books. Every month, I spent my entire allowance
on titles such as The New Teen Titans, X-Men, and The Huntress (who is, of
course, Batman’s daughter in a parallel universe—I kid you not).
My parents discouraged this habit and counseled me on financial
responsibility. But secretly, I think they were happy about it. After all,
I showed no interest in sports or trucks or toy soldiers—my obsession
with comics and superheroes was so stereotypically boyish that it must
have provided them with some small degree of comfort.
And they’re not the only ones. Years ago, a friend invited me to
dinner with her new husband. When I arrived, she was clearly nervous, but
hopeful that these two very different men in her life would find
something, anything to talk about for an hour or two. She needn’t have
worried. The first X-Men film had just been released, and we were both
dying to see it. We spent the entirety of the meal discussing our favorite
characters and storylines, and went straight from the restaurant to the
theatre, where we revisited the sense of wonder we had known as children.
My friend sat between us, relieved yet befuddled at being surrounded by
two such incredible geeks. I didn’t much notice; when I wasn’t lost in
nostalgic reverie, I was concentrating on Hugh Jackman’s chest hair.
Looking back, it’s hard to say why characters like Superman,
Spider-Man, and Green Lantern were so exciting to me as a child. It’s
too easy to suggest that I loved them simply because I could see every
bicep and deltoid bulging beneath their skintight outfits (though I have
to admit that I can still remember the day I discovered that Peter Parker
slept in the nude on page 17).
Perhaps it was their altruism. No, really—I remember carrying on long
debates in my head about what differentiated super-heroes from
super-villains, and why anyone blessed with unique gifts such as flight,
x-ray vision, or an invisible plane would use them so selflessly. At the
end of the day, what attracted me to my masked crusaders for truth and
justice might have been their innate sense of decency. Because at their
core, these were good, good people…who just happened to have all those
biceps and deltoids.
And yet, I know there’s something else that fascinated me about these
muscle-bound do-gooders. There were similarities that extended beyond
self-sacrifice and a lovely silhouette. Obviously, most were blessed with
superpowers that mere mortals do not enjoy (I wasn’t one of those comic
fans who liked Batman best because he had no superpowers; in fact, I
thought it showed a real lack of imagination on his part). Also, most had
not asked for these abilities, usually attained either by freak accident
or alien birth. Finally, most of my heroes employed the use of a secret
identity, in an attempt to obtain a halfway normal life, as if such a
thing were possible. And I wonder: could it be that my sexually repressed
11-year-old self was subconsciously seeing parallels between my closeted
existence and theirs?
Recently, my adoptive lesbian mom accompanied me to the Movies at
Midway for a rainy afternoon screening of Spider-Man 2. As the lights
dimmed, I could feel the nostalgia bursting through my system like Pop
Rocks (remember those?). After a particularly rough week, I was thrilled
to sit in a dark room for two hours and watch a superhero toil for truth,
justice, and the American way while wearing a fabulous outfit, just as
they did throughout my youth.
The film more than fulfilled this need. Spider-Man 2 is an enormously
entertaining adventure, even if the dialogue is sort of cheesy and our
heroine’s damsel-in-distress routine is a tad overplayed. However, there’s
also a lot of heart to be found in this movie. Yes, I’ve just described
a popcorn flick that features a mad scientist with four mechanical arms as
having "a lot of heart," but it’s true.
This is a film that takes place in a world seemingly devoid of gay
people. And yet, Spider-Man 2 tells our story, in its own way. Psychotic
villains aside, this is primarily a movie about a young man whose life
would be a hell of a lot easier if he could only tell his friends and
family who he really is. He’s surrounded by people who love him dearly,
but can’t understand him. Ring any bells? And, in a twist all too
reminiscent of the experience of many gays and lesbians, he decides not to
tell, but simply to squelch the part of himself he can’t bear to
discuss.
Obviously, the appeal of the film and its genre isn’t exclusive to
gay people. There are lots of young boys (and girls) who devoured comic
books as I did and grew up to be flagrant heterosexuals. Perhaps all of us
wish we could fly through the air with the greatest of ease.
Perhaps all of us enjoy seeing good triumph over evil. Finally, perhaps
the wisdom contained in the message "just be yourself" is more
universal than we know.
Eric C. Peterson is a diversity consultant and a frequent visitor to
Rehoboth Beach. He can be reached at